Why so serious?

So this is a little more serious, but my day was dull and I was feeling reflective.
Oh, and of course this is quite summative and general--but you get the point.

My current situation is allowing me a lot of self discovery. Things now are significantly different than last winter. Its amazing to look back and just see how greatly things can progress. Previously, at the ripe age of 20 I was in a state of depression and had no idea. I woke up, ate breakfast, went for a run, went to work (often times 12 hours), came home, ate dinner, TV., passed out. I was a machine. I had created this routine of timed acts that led me no where fast. I was trapped alone with my thoughts of how terrible things were and how much worse they could get. I pitied myself, and that is a place I never want to go back to. I went back to school and got myself out of this God-for-saken town.
To be surrounded by art, and the optimistic dreams of the students around me immediately changed my demeanor. I decided that since I don’t have work to keep me busy I would go above and beyond in my school projects to occupy the time. Blindly, without rhyme or reason I just threw myself completely into the assignments given. My friends interests in my work boosted my confidence, and fueled me even further. Over-time, I had realized that I came out of “machine mode” and was just generally passionate about these subjects. I was no longer taking up time, or keeping busy, I was interested and investing time into what I cared for. With my natural “big picture view” back in place I could see further than I had thought possible. In short, this Winter is a dramatic difference and I am thankful. Of course there are hiccups now and then, but ill roll with the punches when they come. I’ve adapted this new motto that “everything happens for a reason”. Of course I find myself curious of these so-called “reasons”, but I’ve got to leave a few things up to chance. Control over everything is just not a possibility and I can accept that-finally.

P.S.-I just watched The Dark Knight hence the title. Awesome movie, rent it.